I went to the doctor last week. I've been having a lot of pain lately and I've been thinking it's time I try some new meds. I'm just so hesitant because all of the medications used to manage pain for my condition have major side effects. My doctor has been telling me I should try the back injections, but for me, the side effects are a huge turn off, and I'd honestly rather live with the pain.
The biggest problem I face is the fatigue. I wake up multiple times a night, because I'm in so much pain and I'm so stiff that I need to get up and walk around for a bit so I can loosen up enough to fall back to sleep. Anyway, I'm getting some tests done and trying a new medication with a sleep aid in it, so hopefully I'll be able to see some results and feel a little less like a zombie during the day.
Anywho, I had to take my little boys to my appointment because my sitter fell through. When I got to the doctor, Magnus had fallen asleep. I got him out and carried him, while juggling my water bottle and purse as well. I stuck my car key in my pocket. I always, always put my key in a little pocket on the back of my purse, so I made a mental note to remember it was in my pocket, so I wasn't searching my purse looking for my key when it was time to go.
After my appointment, I was walking back to the car and rummaging through my purse looking for my car key. It wasn't in there. Ahhhh, I put it in my pocket, right?! I felt around in my pocket. No key. I got the kids in the car (I had left it unlocked because of the juggling act I'd been performing when I arrived, remember? :) and sat in the front and started digging through and emptying out my giant purse that also doubles as my diaper bag. I figured I must have put the key in there while I was in the office waiting. I emptied and emptied and realized it had been quit awhile since I'd cleaned my purse out. It was such a mess. Receipts, papers, pamphlets. Dispers, wipes, snacks, toys. Not to mention 3 pairs of sunglasses?! Really?? 4 bottles of lotion, 2 hand sanitizers, 6 lipglosses?! This was getting ridiculous.
I finally called back up to the office to see if I'd left it up there somewhere. Nope. Not in the waiting room or the exam room.
It had been about 15 minutes and I decided to get out of the car and check my pocket again. The boys were getting hungry and restless. I got out, checked my pocket, no key. Checked my other pocket, even though I knew I hadn't put it in that one. No ke.... Wait a second. My key! And that, my friends, is why I need new medication. Pure foggy exhaustion is what I live with. Basically, no brain power. Add that to "mommy brain" and I'm in trouble.
I got back in the car, stared at the mess on the passenger seat for a second (contemplating going through it all right then), shoved every little thing, including gum wrappers and scraps of paper back into my purse, promising myself to clean it out when I got home.
I haven't cleaned it yet.